Twenty

"You can have anything but not everything."

Let's talk about age.
But, first, I need a cup of hot black coffee to encourage my mood before we chit-chat about these touchy subject. Haha.
Well, I'm twenty years old this year. I'm a student who should graduate this year. But, I think I can't live my life independently under my Mom's armpit so...I sent my CV just trying to know how far my charisma can influence HRD officer HAHA kidding. The main reason is I need to make money. I want to buy things by myself. I feel ashamed to ask my mom  every time. And last but not least; because for me, growing up is 3H.
Hurt. Hard. Hang.

It's hurt because as I grow up, my daily needs increasing like a rocket, but, I can't give my  mom my puppy eyes like I used to when I was a cute little girl and get EVERYTHING I want--not my need.

It's hard because the point is I don't want to make my money but I want to get money easily. haha. make money for a (almost) fresh graduate is like simalakama. We need experience to apply the job but before we got experience we need to take some job. *sigh* It feels like running in circle and chasing our tails. Never ending pathetic love story.

It's hurt and hard till I want to hang up myself on Kecapi tree and turn to Kuntilanak and haunted every people like me. People on my age. HAHA. kidding.

Honestly, it's my excuses only. I know that I can't curse the wind and blame the fate that I'm getting old day by day just because I can't get what I want easily. Just because I can't hold the sun to rise every day. Just because I can't kiss my own nose. Oh well, how old are you, Ri? Nine?

So here I am. Sitting in front of my office's notebook--yes, guys, I got the job :)--and escaping for a while just to spread my worry about getting old and have to take responsibility about my own ass. But, what i'm saying is let's stop worrying about age, let's start do something to get what we want. Yes we can't have everything, but anything is possible to reach.

Buuut, now I have to go. so many tasks that I have to do. so, see you, twentiers!
RN